Overlove
What good it was
to give so much
for little?
Why did I have to come this far?
Foolish, oh so very foolish of me.
I threw myself into the grave,
headfirst, willingly.
Emotions
Voice & Vagina
For me, Singing has always been a deep task. Emotional as well as physical. The fulfillment one experiences while on a high when singing, is scaringly similar to what happens during the sexual act. One feels abundance, glory, a vessel that has been fulfilled thanks to the right vibrations (and what is the sound of voice, if not vibration?).
Scared
Scared of writing,
of typing these keys
with trembling fingers,
still shattered
from the earthquake
that happened in my heart.
Is it Stress or Excitement?
In our job (Singing, Fitness) we have the luxury of sharing our passions – for how long given the current world situation, we don’t know, but that’s a different matter. I am one to do and make a living of that which excites me, otherwise what’s the point? Doing what you love is beneficial for all parties involved: for you, for the people you work for/with, and for the result of your work, as they will absorb your joy. And whether or not you are too technical or precise or a lot in the mind, what matters is the energy you project, the enthusiasm you have when you deliver your work. That ‘thing’ that those who come to you don’t seem to find within themselves and they are seeking.
Overeating & Trauma
It’s not easy to have the willpower to follow a diet when one has an energetic footprint from other lives that conditions the current behaviours, preferences, orientations, lacks and blockages in the present body. Plus it’s not just our own individual life’s journey, but also our parental, social and environmental baggage that affects who we are and the shape of our body (including where we tend to store fat and water). So let us see how these stored pieces of energy can determine our predisposition to overeat, no matter how willing we are to change… we might always come back to the same patterns, if we don’t heal the root cause, i.e. the trauma.
Emotions & Exercise
Even knowing lots of concepts, one never really has all the answers. Such is human nature.
I got inspired by one of my clients to write about this article, because her situation applies to many people. When I met her, she lived absorbing the sorrows and miseries of her clients. She put herself down to please others. She is extremely empathetic, compassionate, sweet… and she walked with her shoulders down, a rounded back, slouching, bending over to the point I almost had to bend my neck looking for her face to meet her eyes. She was very wobbly on her knee and elbow joints, almost as if her joints were saying ‘sorry for being myself’, apologizing and saying thank you for everything to everyone, putting everybody’s needs first before hers.
