Lungs carry Sorrow

Grief.

That explains why I am a singer in the physical body, to express through sound and air all my emotions. If I don’t express them through sound and air, I perish. Literally. If I don’t speak out Truth, I die.

Hence why I contracted asthma, diagnosed last year while I was going through the heaviest grief period of my life to date. I was finding myself sighing deeply for no reason, not having enough oxygen, while at the same time I was living in a mouldy flat and none of my complaints to the narcissistic landlord or the council were heard or solved satisfactorily, until I left. Not being heard or seen, being ignored and treated unjustly is also a cause of repressed expression and grief, that just doesn’t disappear magically, it gets stored in the body.

The modern healing and holistic worlds tell us that “it is our fault” when we suffer, when we don’t let go. This is gaslighting at its highest level, as it can go unrecognisable, and yes, this applies to some people, but not to all. Some of us are pure at heart, have had no childhood traumas, have grown in a loving environment, and we are “naive” to the evils of the world, so pain sticks to us as a form of knowing and learning what it means. Not everyone is built to withstand this pain, but some of us are, and we receive these lessons of life: to know undeserved pain. Specially when you are a deep person, you’ll be thrown into people and situations who constantly test your depth and boundaries, to see how far your empathy and your unconditional love go. To transform the pain this creates, even when you don’t notice it at first, through the light material we are made of, without having to do anything, just by being, is our mission in life, as we are transformers. It’s not that we don’t want to “let go” of sadness, is that it is just there. I, for example, feel it all, the sad and the joyful. Not just the sad. All the extremes and the in-betweens.

Beware of the alternative spiritual world, that blames the victim for its suffering in order to protect the perpetrator. We find this in healing circles, psychologists, therapy counsellors, shamans, spiritual gurus, and even the psychopsomatic field. The place that would be, in theory, the safest to pour one’s soul… can often be a nest of vipers waiting to siphon the purity and light of people. Nothing different from the controlling, inverted, deceiving nature of religion. Ultimately, we will find our solace within. We are our own saviours – if we want. That’s why we have a divine gift called will and another one called discernment, inner knowing or intuition.

Coming back to the co-relation between our lungs and sorrow. Our organs are directly linked to our glands and emotions via the HPA Axis (hypotalamic-pituitary-adrenal) axis, which is the body’s central system to regulate our emotions (different levels of “stress”). It all starts in the hypotalamus and pituitary glands (inside the brain), that then activate the other body glands, that then send their hormones (messengers), or not, to the organs. TCM (Chinese Medicine) and ancient oriental medicine has acknowledged this connection from the start, whereas our conventional medicine not only ignores all of this, but also demonises it. This is, of course, by design.

Each one of our organs and glands stores emotions, and it also corresponds with our energetic centres, or chakras. As I have studied more over the years, I have come to understand that each organ is actually a chakra or energy centre in itself. Not just the conventional 7 chakras, or even 12, that we are told. Each organ has a frequency, a purpose, and a connection to the divine in a unique way (each organ is also a holographic representation of our whole body, as we are ourselves a hologram, and each part is a small representation of the whole, but that’s another talk). Since every emotion also carries a frequency, if we don’t express it, it gets trapped inside the organs, shaping how we breathe, move, and even how we see life. We can then say that every organ/gland is more prone to store certain types of frequencies than others, although often there is a crossover between them. I see it and feel it like this:

In my knowing, the lungs are closely connected to the heart, but they are also connected to the throat or vocal expression energy, physically and energetically. Sorrow and grief relate to heartbreak, and heart/lung diseases are intimately connected to love-less emotional situations. Not just partner/romantic/sexual love-less connections, but any love-less form, such as lack of self-love, a big deception, a disappointment of any kind, where you put your heart energy and it was betrayed, severed, or manipulated. That, and the inability to express yourself about it (unspoken disappointment), or you are silenced, or you express it but nobody hears you – this is the worst, because it’s like being in a nightmare where you try to scream for help but the voice isn’t coming out, or you scream and look for help but there’s nobody around, or there are plenty of people but you are INVISIBLE. I have felt invisible many times in my life, despite my presence. When one has a different frequency to most, one can be often unseen, almost literally, and so one wanders around like a ghost.

According to psychoneuroimmunology research, all this unprocessed grief and sadness cannot only disrupt respiratory function but also immune regulation. Shallow breathing, chest pressure, recurring infections and the feeling of “not taking enough breath”, are not just physical problems, they are emotional.

The lungs are one of the emunctory or excretory organs, this means they are responsible for eliminating waste, along with the skin, kidneys, liver and intestines. They are built to drain, not just CO2, but also the weight of your unprocessed emotions. But when there’s a disruption, all that toxicity remains inside. You can try all the breathing exercises, but if the drains aren’t open, the release won’t last. How do we open the drains? All I can say is: “it will happen when and if it has to”, because no matter how much you force it physically with exercises or therapies, if your soul is not ready, it won’t work. Ayahuasca has helped me, purging in the form of deep, long, heavy sighs… but this is my personal experience. Plant medicine works only when you’re ready, and in ways that you don’t expect, but it always gives you what you need at the right time. You must have your awareness switched on to receive the message, though. You will KNOW.

So, take this insights from someone like me, whose speciality is the voice and breathing, and has studied the voice and breathing in depth. Once again, one is most vulnerable in the places when one is the strongest, in my case my strengths are my voice, expressing my whole being through singing and the voice, and breathing and heart energy are the fuel for that. And in return, I have always been prone to chest and throat infections, since birth, super sensitive to temperature and environmental changes, and any energetic fluctuations. Crazy sensitive but also strong. Courage (heart energy) is the only thing that makes one truly strong. And that is not built in the gym, it comes with your spirit. May we continue to be strong in the heart, to be able to carry the pains of the world.

Here are some links to other articles of mine on this blog, that are related to this subject: